Sunday, November 28, 2010

anonymity

faceless, nameless, blameless
behind a computer screen
like a blind man fumbling around
aimlessly reaching out for something
someone
somewhere.
where you base your opinion
or your feelings
off a couple short blurbs
and a small, blurry picture
hoping that somehow
lightning could strike twice
but the empty communication
only leaves you wanting more
your stomach aching with the knowing feeling
that even in your made up world
you don't fit
that even your imaginary self
doesn't fit inside the skin it was given
its hard to imagine how we can continue
down this dark and desperate path
like a blind man fumbling around
aimlessly reaching out for something
someone
somewhere
when we know in all probability
it will lead to more missed encounters
of somethings slipping through our fingers
and someones turning into no ones
and somewheres changing into nowheres.

Monday, November 22, 2010

underestimate

underestimate
your ability to miss something you never had
the sting of november's cold air
hits my lungs
like the sight of you
hits the pit of my stomach
sending butterflies bursting through the sides of my stomach
into the air
selling out my cool, calm demeanor
a rush of blood to my cheeks
i try to blame on my faulty insides
but everyone knows
when i look at you
and you look past me
that i wish something could be more than it is
even a year later
i still cant let it go
or maybe it wont let me go
the arms of this obsession squeezing me tight
cutting off my air supply
so as i drown in this sea of regret
of misguided signals
and deep, relentless fear
that i will never climb out of this
deep, dark hole.